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i am tired and we have a million things to do so now i am going to do them.

peace and blessings to everyone.

oh my…

oday
Jul 22

so I got these

i will be sleeping in a

oh and

does not work with

lalalal its been a great month even with all this rain.    sending lots of love and joy out to ya all.  send it back cause you know i will be…wet  but it will all be cool.  there are many wonderful blessing in life…

dry and warm…dry and warm… my little mantra…

horoscope

Did life feel meaningless last week? Was your destiny a random sequence of events shepherding you to a series of different nowheres? Even worse, were you convinced that human beings are toxic scum? If so, Leo, get ready for your mood to shift drastically. The whims of fate are mutating. Soon, a source of curses may be a fount of blessings. Enticing leads will rise up out of the midst of boredom. Human beings will fascinate and teach you, and every day will bring new signs to draw you deeper into delicious mysteries.

peace love

my pumpkin vines are taking over my garden!!! i mean these plants are like twisting and sticking to everything it’s pretty amazing. if i could put together one of those projects where a picture is taken ever minute over 24 hours i am sure that the pumpkins would be the coolest things to watch!

my cherry tomato plant have lots of green cherry tomatoes on it.

i have two zucchini that will be ready to pick this week. tons of some kind of yellow squash. My basil and sage is huge… and my oregano is flowering. the green peppers look like they are struggling with this mild rainy summer…so do my big burpee tomato plants.

i have to sun flowers that made it through the ‘oooops was that a weed or a flower we just pulled out’… incident (oh well next year i will know more)

i have red onions up the fizzle shizzle (?) so if anyone wants red sweet italian onions i have four rows with 15 onions in each…YES 15 in each!!!! so yeah…but i am also growing for the hungry so i am sure some soup kitchens will find a use for the onions… either way if you want to try this most delish onion and you know me let me know to set some aside for you.

today was the last day of the fair… josh is pretty beat… but he DID IT! ran Albany Audio for an entire week, hired guys, rented trucks…and he made it out alive. he really needs a few days to recuperate but we are leaving early Wednesday to volunteer at Falcon Ridge Folk fest. when you volunteer you camp for free, and get free Breakfast and dinner every day. last year i was the back stage decorator and what not as i don’t have a lot of ‘skills’ that can be applied to main stage…but oh well. i’m looking forward to the creative vegetarian food, the people, drum circles, the dance tent and the tent hill side concert watching…i could care less about the music…for the most part…as long as it has a happy energy. one cool part about being a volunteer is that you get there a day before everyone else…so you get the best camping spots.

i got a physics book today. i have never taken a college physics class… and most likely never will… but the book is digestible in many ways so i thought why not it will compliment some other areas… do i want to retain math equations??…nah…but i want to grasp the thought patterns of physicists…being totally off the other end in my comfort level… i figure it can’t hurt to just read it and try to have it all mesh together…plus i did like the class physical science…ah which i guess was the ’90s version of high school physics…with MR. KERNS! and it will work well with the quantum theory book. i don’t see this being a every day read… i see it being a work book with room for notes which can be taken when doing the real life experiments with every day like things. it did not get the best reviews but i think that is because… these people reviewing it are hard core physic eaters…while i am just a space jumper so to speak.

this band makes for good youtube watching.

ah kind of flaming lips, disco, mgmt… ah… kind of spacey drifty like.

other things i watched today

so i threw a party for the teens i worked with…

ah the teens who volunteered and followed me through every event, who spent countless hours taking cheap shots from ignorant negative types…and kept a smile on their face or looked to me for calmness when assholes threw cigarettes at them…who joked with me on car rides, who volunteered when i really needed someone to go speak in front of a town board…even if they REALLY did not want to…

so yeah actually the party was suppose to be my “going away” party which i did not want. to have a bunch of people gather together so they can say their good byes, even if my office was two floors below theirs in the basement and i hardly ever talked to the staff…

so i purposely switched the theme of the party to Congratulations Teens! and bought them little gifts, and set the date for 6pm…

and well i just really wanted to not focus on me because we all know i am dealing with the guilt of slacking big time since the moment I KNEW the program would not go through…and facing that… i mean…’patience the work slacker’…and not facing it…by just staying home and being well…what i have been being… i mean what does it mean facing up to the fact that you purposelessly are not trying hard… and confronting constant disappointment… in others…oh i mean… in me…facing me in others in what i know would be the best way to perform…a high performance level takes… ambition…drive…will…and i am…deflated and openly so… don’t try to squeeze me for any more community eduction juice cause i did what i could do when i knew what i did mattered and then when it stopped mattering because the system’s huge gaping loop hole swallowed all the disgruntled cut employees….well can any one hear me through the turning wheels of empirical research and social norm change…and the machine entity we plead with to keep funding?? nah probably not.

oh wait… did i just totally take this opportunity to vent and HIGH LIGHT one particular real issue in my life that has so driven me to the point of where i am right now… ummmm…. yep i did.

yeah so i had the party today… yadda yadda yadday… it was cool… with some sweet fresh bakery cake and the best 4th street I love pizza (their favorite)…

and in return i got the COOOOOOOOOOOOOLEST

personalized

picture album

FULL

of us

all of us

through out the years

not put together by my fellow staff members who barely came… because why would they? i purposely made the time inconvenient for them…

but from teens who are pretty sweet… and the made a letter to go along as you flip the book… and it was a story, in the tone of Kristen, which could be described as that angst-y… yet positively enlightened SPIRIT of young teens with the world ahead of them…who had a good time in reality check…apparently they did as that is all they wanted to focus on. so yeah… i feel good about that… that they enjoyed it and wanted to make me something.

and so that is that.

i feel real good because i got a home-made book from a group of 17-19 year olds who got better stuff to do than do that…

errr i wonder if the things i got them conveys how much each one meant to me in all we did together?? i hope so… i really do.

peace

look what i have found.

what keeps people from just doing new things?

…sometimes it like all the ‘crap’ we gather to define ourselves…does more than outline…

i went to ‘big day out’…oh i guess jeff works with one of the promoters or sponsors or something…so yeah, free tickets. i stayed till 8. i did not want to see Off Spring or Stained… i saw the band i wanted to see. hmm…the fair starts Tuesday. summer camp begins again for noah tomorrow and i am finishing up the last few weeks of my work. i have way to many weeds in the garden still… i need a few more good hours… so much rain. plus i have to put together all this stuff for this thing… and i am unsure of exactly what i am doing about that but think it will all work out.

that one part sounds like oompa loompas.

also a good song

but i think it was in that vampire movie… which i am tired of hearing about at this point.

hmmm…

soft

bellies were protruding
with all that is
see through
like
lime jello,
that’s right
green
with floating pieces of fruit
our intestine
combine
to soup
stop fast
the barrier of
muscle membrane
a structure
normally not a transparent tissue.

(i must have been very board last night)

summary of shortened short story…

called

~variations of the abyss~

(quick setting)

we had a tendency to wander into stores we could not afford. ankles to elbows stacked….scarfs and all. we went large and seemingly blind.

i wore sunglasses, she needed jeans.

(now in the present)

i sit outside the fitting room, sipping my water, through a straw…feeling guilty that the straw would be here longer on earth.

i know it!!

…yet i continue to drink.

word of advicee:
don’t quickly oath one’s self to a cause
(like billions of straws laying in landfills)
without contemplation of latter implications
(like wanting a drink at the mall).

now i’m heavy and weighted with just a few sips.

while my friend is bending over trying on a 200 dollar pair of jeans

i can read her mind just by staring hard at the sign, ‘woman’s fitting room’.

{There she is…looking in a wall to floor gold knock-off baroque framed mirror}

bending up…bending again staring in to the abyss of her end… wondering…dose she look ‘normal’ ?

better than “normal”??

(pause)

to break the tension..

i yell…

“let me see”!

then…

opening the door slowly…

she steps out….

i take it in

as i immediately

tell her to buy them

no matter what they cost…

impulsive

highly characteristic in a random nature

i add…

“you know what!? lets go out dancing”

…and blah blah blah…

next thing you know

the moon is high music

and we are dancing.

lalala….then story ends

simply with…

peace to infinity!

(this is just a shortened version of the first shortened version of the original short story, which sadly has been out of print for some time…)

OH Alison Mosshart (of THE KILLS) is in Jack White’s the dead weather. eh… the band is eh. but she is ah…lovely.

The Dead Weather – Treat Me Like Your Mother

i don’t think i like this band… but i thought it was entertaining to watch at least once. it was featured on myspace.

…and why not add…

The young man saith unto him, All these things have I observed: what lack I yet?

mathew 19:20