‘the neurotic of today is the man of the future’
Um…these folks in the video are incredibly enjoyable to listen to…
just like a big old vibrating…pulsating…knot…ya just got to work it out.
convert…those nippy notes of my thoughts that laugh would have me laugh..out loud in cynical approach…now why would you want that darling self, why? – i wouldn’t, i wouldn’t want it directed at me… and since the time is over, the important information was shared, and the signs have flashed off and on, off and on, off and on… and confirmation in the deep grudge… the joy…is not laughing. is watching…and wishing well. and everyone has the right to take a turn and weave it into something that works for them, satisfaction. me…pleased, with what i have been shown and taught. willfully ignorant, how about willfully on a ride…and being very very patient; and look what transpired; so much goodness. so many things others wanted to point out, which i hope it lead them…me…us… to where they…we…i wanted to be…so far…as i check my effects…patting down my mind; i say…surely, …we made points worth making…attentive affection gained, i know i feel the love. <3 <3 <3 and hoping so many others do too!!!
at this moment: passing thoughts, in my favorite spot...noah sitting to my left reading a graphic novel, josh working his remaining hours away at the egg...the animals sleeping; laying about. it feels good to be home...and not at work, though i had a spectacular day at work...stress free and with plenty of time to admire little2 in his expansive watery world. bear died today, noah took it well. he will be buried in the spring.
To properly aspire.
last weekend we were up till 5am, chatting... i cried...i was crying and she told me to...she said keep it coming; this is us...getting closer...close...i read her my mess of words, space and dotted pause. and our hands are similarly small. it's so simple no frills...no upping the stakes...no risk... just a great friendship...minus a power struggle. gratitude feels good on the inside and looks great on us both. thank you divine.
Josh has decided to leave the egg. Noah and I are very excited for him! This was the very best choice. I am proud of him for stepping outside of his comfort zone. Josh does not handle change well, in the past he would do just about anything to avoid change. His nerves do happen to manifest into body aches,but from what I have seen and witnessed he is seemingly energetic and motivated. Way to go Josh; over coming shit like it's your duty!
I enjoyed it all...even the pain, it was incredible; thirst quenching.
.And that's that.
we have...'rearranged some molecules' i am sure of it, nothing could convince me of anything else. 
awareness...be...in it.
thank you thank you thank you.
